Fun in the Sun.

So, for the last couple of days, I've been in a really nice, warm area, and enjoying the water and sun! I was in the water doing some water activities (water skiing, wakeboarding, knee boarding, tubing, etc) And, the first time I got up on the ski's for the day, I passed out about 10 seconds later! :D So, my family thinks it is a side effect of the Minipress, but according to my doctor, we're praying it's a one time thing and I am going to continue the Minipress; Although if it happens again, we will cut my dosage. Fainting is NOT fun, and it's quite scary because I can't remember several seconds, and I was in the water :D. But I am ALIVE> WoooHooo. HAHA. Today has been fabulous. I just got back from watching the new movie "Charlie St. Cloud" (with Zac Efron). It is a very cute movie, and it made me cry. :D I am such a loser. (I cried in Toy Story 3 as well!) Well, I suggest you go see the movie. It was fabulous, and I actually appreciated Zac Efron--his portrayal of a High School Musical star is wiped from my mind!....Have a good evening, and enjoy the HAPPY FRIDAY. Heart. 241 to all!

***Otherwise, all is well. Enjoying life, and struggling not much at all. :D Aside from nightmares and flashbacks...everything is going smoothly. Which always makes life so much easier. I am SO thankful for all of the special blessings from the last couple of days.

Just to name a few:

~Best Friend came to visit.

~My supportive family.

~Being prescribed Minipress.

~Not being hounded by my mother and father.

~The good vibes and feelings I've felt.

~My kids at Camp for their awesome attitudes and smiles.

~Feeling a abundance of HAPPYness and FREEdom.

~The SUN and the FUN i've had in it :D

GoOdNiGhT tO aLl. Enjoy your weekend, and...

ABSORB THAT SUN, BUT DON'T FORGET THE SPF!!!! :D

~THERAPYTEEN.

The Power of Friendship.

So, as I mentioned in a earlier post. I was suicidal and really struggling over the last few weeks. BUT today, my bestie came to stay with me. She is the best girl ever, and she is like my sister! And --I am glad I didn't do something stupid, because if I had, I wouldn't have the opportunity to hang out with such a awesome, fabulous, funny, and adorable girl! :D I am glad I have a best friend--she makes me smile, and I am happier than ever. She stands by me through the good and the bad (as I do for her) and we love each other unconditionally. I feel like I am dancing in the clouds, and I have a friend that has supported me for 3.5+ years. People need true friends, and she is most certainly one of mine! Find someone to say Heart 241. ((**For future reference, Heart 241 mean: I Love You Too (*2*) Much, Forever (*4*), and Once (*1*) More. )) Supportive people are essential along my journey, and I am glad I have so many supportive people. Enjoy the weather. GoOdNiGhT. TherapyTeen.

Sleeep.

So, yesterday after visiting my Doctor *******, I was prescribed Minipress for the 2nd time. It is normally a high blood pressure medicine, but has been seen to help reduce nightmares associated with PTSD. I was on it back in 2007 (I was around 16 years of age), but I was still very tiny due to mal-nutrition that my body couldn't handle it, and I kept passing out (fainting). So, I was only on it for about 1 week. Now, my doctor feels my body can and will handle it better. I took my first dose yesterday. I still had a nightmare last night, so maybe it just takes a few days to you know....."kick in". I am hoping this will aid my sleep >> I am on very heavy sleep medicines, so hopefully that Minipress will give my sleep meds the extra boost to help me sleep through the night without waking up freaked out from a nightmare. I am currently doing EMDR (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing), so this could also be why according to my EMDR therapist. Wisely, she told me that our body expresses emotions and anxiety, but it's just subconsciously. Whether this is good for my body or not, it needs to stop, and i hope this is the right action to take................**** crosses finger****. Hopefully, it will work tonight or in the next couple of days. :D I will most certainly keep you updated. Toodles. TherapyTeen.

Pure Joy.

Today was the first day I truly felt happy in weeks. I have been struggling with my Biological parents action over the last few weeks. I went from scared, to angry, to sad, to suicidal, to angry, to sad, to suicidal. It was horrible; constant personal struggle--while trying to juggle college courses, work, friends, family, and guests at the house. I feel like a little kid in a candy store. Pure Joy for the average pint-sized child. :D Wikipedia says that Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, joy. I have gladly been finding plenty of examples of each. Therapy is hard, but it is very rewarding when you can step away and feel "lifted of burdens". Even if temporarily. :D So, today--do something to brighten someways day help them find a piece of Pure Joy. Nite! Therapy Teen.

Day 1.

Sooooooooo. This is my first entry for this blog. Hmmm....I decided to blog about my life in therapy. So many people judge and discriminate again therapy because they picture images from the 1999 box-office hit,"Girl, Interrupted" (With Angelina Jolie, Brittany Murphy, etc). Some people have some serious psychological issues, but for me--it's about a whole different ball game. I have issues with Complex-Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder from childhood abuse suffered at the hands of my biological family. I am 19 years old, and I am in therapy. I am tired of carrying around the burden of my past--and this blog is to share my journey with friends, family, and people who care. Don't judge. This is a learning process, and it should not happen overnight. So, bare with me, and hope you stay for the ride...TherapyTeen.